Turn Ons:I rediscovered the power of breath and focused intention to melt stress from my body and de-clutter my mind.
Turn Offs: Meditating isn't fun. Nor does it come naturally or easily to me. So, self-motivation and discipline were extremelychallenging and lasted for only 15 consecutive days out of the intended 30.
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It was the 21st day of the Chopra Center 21-day Meditation Challenge and I was still on meditation #15. To cram or not to cram? That was the question. I could've meditated all night to make up for my lack of commitment over the last week. But that seemed counter-intuitive to the whole process and purpose of creating a consistent daily practice. My other option? To simply acquiesce and admit that I failed miserably at my new spiritual practice and valiant attempt at combating stress, fear and worry without a bottle of wine. But, being the perfectionist that I am, I couldn't help but nurse my sense of failure with malbec.
It was no fault of Deepak Chopra and his team of spiritual gurus who thoughtfully created a 21-day path toward finding inner-strength, inner-joy and inner-peace. Well, I guess I can blame Davidji. He was too much of a distraction. His hypnotic voice backed by tranquil, new-agey music conjured up images of a laid-back, sun-kissed surfer with blonde dreadlocks that I wouldn't mind rolling around in the sand with. I quickly developed a crush and often followed his guided meditations twice in one night. Once, to let my thoughts drift in fantasy. And twice, to set a real intention and focus on my breath. (I've since google-searched Davidji and realized he's not really my type. Bummer.)
As much as I loved my first 15 days of guided meditation, I realized that I'm about as disciplined at in-home meditation as I am at popping in a workout DVD and actually working out. Instead, I think I need to figure out where my Buddhist BFF meditates and give it another shot; but with the accountability and support of a group.